Torturious secrets

She told me a secret. I'm glad she was comfortable to tell me. But now I'm stuck with it. I cant bare it. I relive it every day. I cant talk to anyone about it, not even her. I don't know what to do.

Why did she have to tell me, what was she expecting me to do? What did it do for her telling me? Dose she feel better now that she's not the only one burdened with this horrible secret?

All I can do, is imagine it over and over again in my head. Its torturing me.

Is it selfish of me to wish I had never been told this secret? Or is it selfish of her to have told me?

I don't know.

Mobile anxiety

This evening I noticed myself starting to feel sad, after looking at my mobile, for probably the 10th time tonight, still not having any messages. It made me feel really empty. Like know one was thinking of me. I just broke up with my boyfriend, my best friend is busy with work and my sole mate has left the country. There is a collection of emotions right there that I'm not dealing with.

The sadness all passed very quickly when I thought that I really don't want a boyfriend right now and I'm happy not being with my last boyfriend. My friends are just away right now, they'll be back.

But it was an interesting thought all the same. I should probable do something about that at some point.

Notes

Dont sleep with a guy to soon. You'll get confused by the sex and think your in love with him.

Remember who you are and the things you want in life.

Do something creative every day.

Save for something important.

Travel as often as possible.

Dont forget the important people in you life.

Visit your parents when you can.

Pay the bills as they come.

I miss you Kelly

She became my best friend in such a short space of time. I loved her so soon. I will miss her. My face has dropped, because I'm not near her. How has she changed me? How will I survive? We where together every day. I don't know what to do.

Ignored

I hate to be left out, I hate to be pushed into the background. That's why I taught my self to talk, to be fun, so it wouldn't happen again. But it still happens sometimes. But I don't put up with it anymore.

Cheese queen

I often find i need to filter out my thoughts. They come out so cheesy on paper. I think i watch to many movies with happy endings. It cloud my perception of reality.