Sleep and Edwina time

So I finally managed to have an 'Edwina only' weekend. I think personal time is very under rated. I often forget about making time for it. I don't realise till my head is about to explode. It very nearly did last week.

I was giving too much to a friend, drinking too much, not sleeping enough and not working hard enough. Oh and was dicked around by a guy.

So i needed this weekend to just stop and reflect. It was really horrible at first (emotional like) but now i feel a lot stronger and can see with a better perspective.

I am ready for the week.

Though another weekend to myself would be nicer.

Belly achs and too much beer

I'm seeing how easily one can absorbe anothers emotional state. You want to help someone so you put in all your energy to do so. Only to see that it didnt help one bit. They are still in the same situation they started with. Your left feeling totally flat and angry that nothing you did helped at all and that possibly all the time you put in did more bad then good. Now all that can be done is seporate your self from the person before they swallow you up whole.

I am so drained, so angry and so hurt. To compensate I have been drinking heavily which has created a negative cycle in my own life. I've not been going to work which is making the work pile up and stress me out. I need to get back on track and build myself up again.

But what do I do about this friend? Do I tell them what they are doing to me? Do I avoid them until I'm strong again? Or do I skip the country to aviod it all completly?

Arggg... Life and the people in it.