I'm seeing how easily one can absorbe anothers emotional state. You want to help someone so you put in all your energy to do so. Only to see that it didnt help one bit. They are still in the same situation they started with. Your left feeling totally flat and angry that nothing you did helped at all and that possibly all the time you put in did more bad then good. Now all that can be done is seporate your self from the person before they swallow you up whole.
I am so drained, so angry and so hurt. To compensate I have been drinking heavily which has created a negative cycle in my own life. I've not been going to work which is making the work pile up and stress me out. I need to get back on track and build myself up again.
But what do I do about this friend? Do I tell them what they are doing to me? Do I avoid them until I'm strong again? Or do I skip the country to aviod it all completly?
Arggg... Life and the people in it.
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